Follow The Black Wolf

You went to the gym, I stayed with the kids. What exactly did you do after I dropped you off? Where were you when I called, 6 hours later? How did you get so close to home so fast? Who did you spend time with, until then? I like it that you have so many friends, I don't like it that you have that many friends. I like that you are so, but I hate that you ask so many questions (hate the questions or the way of asking?). I like it that you spend time with your friends, I hate that you'd rather spend time with your friends and not your husband / kids / loved ones. Am I a loved one? Part of them, of that circle? (Apparently not - I don't love you anymore) I like that you can talk about many things, I hate it that you're not doing that with me. Although, maybe if you'd do that, I might want to "save" you, so better not. You need therapy and I support it. But still, you seldom came to me. Probably I hate more the fact that I'm not the one come fir

... 6 in the morning, on a Saturday ... ... the key turning in the door ... ... a paper slip ... ... his name on it ... ... brought you home? ... ... paid for the cab? ... remember, remember, the 25th of november the longest night when I slept. next time I won't be sleeping.

Actually yeah, I think I'm mad because this was the last weekend without having the kids around, that we could've spent time together. And I don't feel like we spent time together. And it hurt like hell that you were out for a whole freaking day, no sign whatsoever. And after that? You just appear, "saving the world", starting to "solve" things around the house. Like all my efforts, ALL ALONE, were just... dust in the wind... Worst than all that? You started saving the world past midnight... Wanna do something together? That should be simple - yes or no... If you do, what's missing? What do you need more? Wanna see a movie? Let's just f#cking watch it... But if you only agree to stuff just for the sake of it, just to save the appearances, I'd rather not. That's falsity and I neither want it, nor tolerate it.