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I am dead. You cheated on me. You have a child with this man. I am dead. And so are you.

I want to be in a long term, committed, romantic relationship with a woman who shares my values for trust, respect, honesty, affection, appreciation and acceptance. I want a relationship with a foundation of mutual admiration and support of each other's dreams and desire to live a full life of achievement, growth and contribution. I want a relationship that is playful, fun, adventurous, flirtatious and full of intimacy and passion for each other.

Was expecting you'd be home by now. You're not. No more sleeping this time. 5 am.  no sign. no respect. you'd go to her birthday, but wouldn't care for our anniversary. no more unconditional trust.

I don't want you to go to her birthday. You didn't care about our anniversary, why would I agree to you going to her birthday. My weekdays are for myself, my weekends are for the three of you. Your weekdays are for yourself. The weekends? For you not to spend them with us. Not anymore. I've respected your weekdays, you will respect mine. I came with you to places and events I didn't really care to join or be a part of. But you? You never took part in events where you should have shown you were on my side, that you were supporting or supportive of me.

When you’re in a relationship, you’re not supposed to fall in love with someone else. But it can happen and sometimes its just too late for us to realize that we’re actually falling for someone.  Sometimes the small things that they do for or to us, makes us compare them to the one we’re committed to. Temptation comes in different ways - often times by the time we realize we’re wrong, the damage has been done.  IF the relationship has been on the rocks for quite sometime now, then falling in love with someone else is bound to happen.  If you really value and love the person you’re currently with, then stop being with the other person and focus on your relationship.  If relationship is going down the drain, better end it first before moving on to the next person.

I wanted you to wait I wanted to discuss . What happens if it's negative . What happens if it's positive . Wait and look together . Most probably it would have been negative, just like it proved to be. But the discussion would have been much more important. Now I believe the second test will be positive.

I care of HOW you are. I care of WHERE you are. I care to know you are OK. That you are SAFE. You've got what to eat, a roof above your head.

When I said I accept you having this guy as a friend to mentor you, I meant THAT. Why would you cook him something, then take it to him, then LIE to me about it? How and why should I believe you did cook something for him and take it to his place? How do I know you didn't just go over there and... well? What if in ten years you just tell me... You know, I didn't cook anything. I just went there and sought refuge in his arms. And not only his arms... I didn't want you to cook for me. I didn't want you to cook, it wasn't an expectation when I met you. Because I believed you would start cooking for me out of love. Or caring. Or tell it however you want. But you started to cook for me/us out of "must". "Have to". "Should". And you cooked FOR him just because he's what? A friend? You don't cook for your husband but you cook for a "FRIEND"? came home to an empty home. so many calls, no answer. came home to an empty home.

I'm not good enough. maybe I shouldn't have existed at all. I'm not good enough. I was never good enough for you. You are busy with someone else. You are busy with anyone else. 27.01 I'm not good enough at anything. I'm not good enough at hugging you. I'm not good enough at listening to you. I'm not good enough at kissing you. I'm not good enough at helping you with the kids. I'm not good enough at trying to understand you. I'm not good enough at providing support. I'm not good enough at holding you in my arms. I'm not good enough at healing you. I'm not good enough at comforting you. I'm not good enough at sleeping beside you. I'm not good enough at fingering you. I'm not good enough at giving you massages. I'm not good enough at licking your boobs. I'm not good enough at licking your pussy. I'm not good enough at making love. I'm not good enough at having sex. I was never

DO NOT bring HIM into this house. HIS ideas, HIS influence.